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10-04-2005, 06:37 PM
hi everyone ... i just wanted to share these words which i wrote long time a go .. abit sad but they represent some of the feelings i had at that time ... hope you like it ...i will leave you now with it enjoy it ....
i wonder if the sorrow inside me will be understood by someone in the future ...
no one i think will understand me now or later .. i act to be someone else ...
i am a sad person... how come no one knows what is the real pain i hold inside me ..even the nearest ppl
to me they dont know what is the real reason for my sadness life ...
i always keep wondering why i didn't finish my life when i had the chance to do so ...
why??
i know all of you are gunna say i am insane ..
yes i am insane if i keep my life going on and on ...i am insane as long as i am alive...
i hate to live ...why just can't i die..i will feel much better ...
my soul will rest..
i just need to rest ...i don't want to know the truth of this life...
i don't need anyone to know who real me.. and what the sorrow i hold inside me is ...
people become sad, unhappy for silly things....but me i am not .. i have sth really deep inside me
deeper to keep for myself but it hurts..it kills me everyday ..
when i weak up in the morning knowing that this pain will not leave me alone till i die...i hate myself ...
i hate being alive...i don't know what is the point for me being alive....
i kept this pain inside me since i was born...
it hurts when u know that the pain which u were born with will not leave you till you die...
if so i want to die ...
i want people to forget me who i was in this life..because i wasn't the person who they really thought i was..
i am someone else ..that no one will discover her truth..
i am a different person ...
i am a person who doesn't have the right to be alive...
why i didnt die when i was suppose to ....
why should i keep everyone i know in pain ...
i am usless ...have no point in this life..
i only bring pain, sadness and hate to others' lives..
oh my lord .. why dont u take my soul...i will rest and others will rest too..
my lord.. i am hurting others not only myself ..my lord why should i live to hurt and cause pain to others..
all this is bcause of that pain i hold inside me since i was born...
living with it all my life .. is so sad..
so i know i won't bring happiness in others's lives
only sadness will be brought to thier lives by me...
why???
why should i be that one to hold this pain my lord??
why can't sombody else hold it ?? why it is always me???
i'll keep living silently with this pain...whether i was smothing or not....
though i am sure that days are not gunna sort this pain out for me ...
bcause nothing else like death gonna sort it out for me...
i wonder if the sorrow inside me will be understood by someone in the future ...
no one i think will understand me now or later .. i act to be someone else ...
i am a sad person... how come no one knows what is the real pain i hold inside me ..even the nearest ppl
to me they dont know what is the real reason for my sadness life ...
i always keep wondering why i didn't finish my life when i had the chance to do so ...
why??
i know all of you are gunna say i am insane ..
yes i am insane if i keep my life going on and on ...i am insane as long as i am alive...
i hate to live ...why just can't i die..i will feel much better ...
my soul will rest..
i just need to rest ...i don't want to know the truth of this life...
i don't need anyone to know who real me.. and what the sorrow i hold inside me is ...
people become sad, unhappy for silly things....but me i am not .. i have sth really deep inside me
deeper to keep for myself but it hurts..it kills me everyday ..
when i weak up in the morning knowing that this pain will not leave me alone till i die...i hate myself ...
i hate being alive...i don't know what is the point for me being alive....
i kept this pain inside me since i was born...
it hurts when u know that the pain which u were born with will not leave you till you die...
if so i want to die ...
i want people to forget me who i was in this life..because i wasn't the person who they really thought i was..
i am someone else ..that no one will discover her truth..
i am a different person ...
i am a person who doesn't have the right to be alive...
why i didnt die when i was suppose to ....
why should i keep everyone i know in pain ...
i am usless ...have no point in this life..
i only bring pain, sadness and hate to others' lives..
oh my lord .. why dont u take my soul...i will rest and others will rest too..
my lord.. i am hurting others not only myself ..my lord why should i live to hurt and cause pain to others..
all this is bcause of that pain i hold inside me since i was born...
living with it all my life .. is so sad..
so i know i won't bring happiness in others's lives
only sadness will be brought to thier lives by me...
why???
why should i be that one to hold this pain my lord??
why can't sombody else hold it ?? why it is always me???
i'll keep living silently with this pain...whether i was smothing or not....
though i am sure that days are not gunna sort this pain out for me ...
bcause nothing else like death gonna sort it out for me...